weekend to celebrate a faithful God

When Travis and I found out we were going to be parents we were overcome with thousands of emotions. Some we didn't even know were possible. The main emotions were obvioulsy shock and excitement but we couldn't ignore the small bit of sadness we had.

Travis has a horrible work schedule. He's gone days at a time and he's not home more than 3 days in a row, ever. I know some parents are overseas or have way worse circumstances than the both of us and I have mad respect for them all. But Travis wanted to be there for his son everyday. He wanted to see him everyday, share scripture with him everyday, play with him everyday, have dinner with him everyday and pray together everyday. We both believed God had different plans for us as parents.

We cried out for guidance. This was the first time Travis stepped up as a FATHER and I fell even deeper in love with him. As always God gave an answer on His time.

Travis decided to request to change his rate within the Coast Guard for a rate that would give him a more flexible schedule. I'm just gonna be honest, I'm not your normal military wife. I really don't know a lot about how things work within the military. After a straight 72 hours of work Travis really doesn't care to talk about it after a duty set and I don't either. I just want to cuddle :) so that's usually what we do hahaha. So to make things short, he is a BM3 but now he is going to go to A school to be an AST. If you've seen The Guardian with Ashton Kutcher, then you know just about as much as I do.

He sent the request to someone high in command and then we waited. We waited what felt like forever and there was a lot of discouragement at times. It had been 6 weeks since he had sent it up and we were both getting really unsure. Every scripture we read, song we heard and lesson we learned seemed like it could either be God saying "It will be approved" or "Get content where you are." When you're in that waiting period it's hard to remember God's faithfulness. Other things seemed to be falling apart as well and I had decided it was taking too long. I got bitter. I felt like we had cried out enough and there should be an answer, that we deserved an answer. I was wrong in all my thinking and I was letting my flesh take control of every emotion.

But my awesome husband stayed faithful. Last Thursday he decided to fast for a week. Fast for an answer, any answer, and he kept telling me "God's about to do something big."  I just thought it was his unshakeable faith talking again so in my heart I was like "Yeah, sure."

Well sure enough, God made things happen in a way I can't deny. In a way that brought so much conviction to my heart. All those emotions I had to my ever loving God were so wrong. All the doubt I had bottled up, all the times I just didn't feel like praying or giving him my time, all the times I chosen myself over Him because "things weren't going my way." And He still worked in my favor. I can't believe it. I don't deserve it. I don't deserve for my heart to be filled with joy, comfort and freedom, but He gives me that yet again. No matter what I felt about Him in those moments, the fact that I have a smile on my face in this moment brings Him joy. There is no greater love than the love my Father has shown me.

The last day of Travis' fast was today. And today Travis got a reply to his request to change his rate and it was a yes.

Our God is awesome. SO flippin' awesome.

So Travis gets home tomorrow morning and this weekend is gonna be one big happy celebration.